Merry Christmas!

1 month today...and I miss him terribly.

I feel pretty sad and slightly agitated today.  It's weird because yesterday I had a great day and felt really upbeat. I actually thought and talked a lot about Desi yesterday but it was all in a very happy sense.  I shared the story of Desi's last day with a friend in a way that didn't drain me emotionally.

I guess because I told the story in a third person sense without attaching to the facts as I often do when I tell the story.  But today is different.

Today it is exactly one month since the day Desi died.  It feels like a marker in one sense that I made it 30 days and haven't fallen apart.  But it's still almost as shocking a reality to accept as the day it happened.  In a way, it may be even more shocking because that day I was wavering from reality to the feeling of being in a scene in a movie or a play.   Today I feel stone cold sober in the reality of Desi's death.

I found the video above on my phone.  Desi used to do this thing that I liked to call "Crazy Dog" or "Happy Dog".  He would get on his back and just sort of wriggle back and forth and paw at the air while he made these happy sounds.  I loved to watch him do this because I could tell he was feeling happy and playful.  I think this was the last time I actually saw him doing this and he only did it briefly. I only caught a part of it but it's enough to make me wonder how he so rapidly declined from October 5th to November 23rd.

There is still guilt over not letting him die naturally.  The only thing gives me any sort of relief is the fact that he just couldn't even stand up anymore.  It was a huge struggle and on the last day he tried so many times and just passed out from exhaustion on his pillow.  He couldn't stand long enough to eat his food or drink his water.  If I didn't put egg into his food he wouldn't have eaten it at all.  How long could I keep allowing him to go on in that condition?  I had to hold the bowl right in front of him so that he could eat and drink.  When I took him outside he was also not able to stand or walk for very long periods of time.  On that last day he was out of his mind.  He didn't know what he wanted.  He kept trying to walk to somewhere.  But where?  Did he know it was his time and was instinctively trying to find a place to go to lie down and die.  I don't know.  I do know that there was nothing I could do to placate his agitated, frustrated and completely uncomfortable state that day.  He seemed to be in his dementia and his mind seemed to be confused as to where he was and what he was doing.

It makes me sick to think about how it all came down to that state of mental dementia and his body failing on him in spite of his will.

I was thinking to myself - what would I do for myself?  A part of me thinks I would allow myself to suffer through the pain right until my moment of death because that is the natural course of things.  Jesus suffered on his last day of life.  I guess that thought still pervades in terms of what the right thing is to do for a human.  I don't really know it's all still pretty confusing to me as I try to understand and separate what I personally, truly believe and what I have been taught or have had drilled into me by my dogmatic, unwavering, irrational, black and white thinking,  Jehovah's Witness mother.

One thing is absolutely sure - I LOVED THAT DOG MORE THAN ANYTHING IN THIS WORLD!!!  If there was ANY WAY that I could have kept him longer without having to see him struggle like that and be so uncomfortable I CERTAINLY WOULD HAVE.  Yes I did hasten death through the act of of Euthanasia.  Euthanasia in short means "painless death" or "good death".  It is also referred to as "mercy killing" which doesn't seem nearly as nice as "painless" or "good" death.  But the word "mercy" itself is defined as "an act of kindness, compassion, or favor".

One of the reasons listed in wikipedia for animal euthanasia is:

• Old age – Deterioration to loss of major bodily functions. Severe impairment of the quality of life.

So if I wear to think about it rationally I would say that because of Desi's age he was suffering from a deterioration to loss of major bodily functions such as standing, walking, urinating, eating and drinking without assistance.  All of these physical factors combined with his mental dementia and  deterioration was causing him severe agitation, confusion and anguish.  He wasn't having a good, easy or happy life and he was unable to be placated in any way.  The combination of physical and mental deterioration was causing a severe impairment to the quality of his life.  And the only merciful solution was to brink on a painless or good death through euthanasia.

Rationally I can understand that I made the absolute correct decision at the absolute correct time and held on until the struggle become unbearable for him and for me.

Morally is where I still have trouble with my decision.  

I think I would come to the same conclusion for any animal or person that was struggling and suffering like Desi was.  But could I do that for myself.  Or ask to have that done to me if the pain and struggle was unbearable.  I'm not sure that I could because of that deeply religious moral belief that I do not have the right to decide who lives and dies and when that happens and that only God or my Higher Power or the Universe has that right.

But when I am truly connected to my Higher Power, the Universe and God, I can hear and feel and know for certain in my heart that the right thing to do was let him say goodbye to me as painful as it was and still is for me to say goodbye to him.

And that is still where I am at today.  And my brain keeps going back and forth with this constant battle and struggle over the guilt that I am not the one that should get to choose and I did versus my rational belief that I listened to the Universe and God's will and my Higher Power and I did what I my obligation and responsibility was to do as the caretaker for my beloved little animal.

No matter how much or how long I struggle and battle within myself the inevitable was going to happen for Desi and it is going to happen for me and for every being that is on this earth.  It is a matter of when.  I did chose the how because he was in such severe implacable distress.

The fact that I played a role in a student film where my own mental pain and anguish was tormenting me until I got a visit from an Angel who was my dog and let me know that I helped her in the time she needed me the most.  And she thanked me for that.

It is I suppose another way to rationalize away the guilt, pain and sorrow we feel over the loss and the decision we make for our animals to hasten the process.

I don't think I'll ever come to a full understanding or resolution to my feelings. Hopefully, they will be easier to bear as time goes on and I will feel more at peace with myself in the fact that Desi really did live out a full and happy life.  Even in the last few years with the loss of his eye and his virtual blindness he was able to enjoy many things.  But he wasn't enjoying anything at all in the last few weeks and that last day all he felt was agitation.  I took care of him with love by eliminating his distress and yes the euphemism applies nicely - putting him to sleep.

U2 - KITE

Back in 2000, I was playing Peter in Edward Albee's play "The Zoo Story" in LA - Hollywood specifically. The Director liked to play a song for the cast before rehearsal to relax us, transport us and sort of prepare us to drop our own human issues and struggles, let go and play our roles.

He would have us find a comfortable spot on the stage or somewhere in the theatre to lie down on our backs. Then he turned off the lights and had us close our eyes and just listen to the music and the lyrics of a song he had chosen for that particular rehearsal.

I was going through a really difficult and rocky relationship that I knew was coming to an end but was having so much difficulty letting go.  One day at rehearsal he played "Kite" by U2 and I couldn't stop weeping softly, quietly and almost silently to myself.

I was weeping in part because I was breaking through my own denial with the realization that I needed to let go. But also, in part, because the lyrics changed my perspective on the process of letting go.

Instead of thinking that I was the one that needed to let go, the lyrics suggested and allowed me put the focus on the other person letting me go. This was extremely powerful for me because it helped me to feel less vulnerable in my loss, less like I was the one that needed to let go and more like I was giving permission for someone to let go of me.

So now I'm thinking of how hard it is for me to let go of Desi and realizing again that, maybe, I need to give Desi permission to let go of me . . . I'm not really sure. But maybe...

Bono sings in the lyrics of this song: "I want you to know that you don't need me anymore . . . you don't need anyone or anything at all".  To me, that sort of shifts the focus and equalizes the process of letting go somehow.

Songs and plays are really poems set to music and meter so the poetry of the lyrics combined with the music and Bono's voice in this live version fuse together to relay the experience of letting go in a poetic way that allows each listener to have their own unique perspective and experience.

Bono introduces this song with these words:

"This song's about letting go of somebody you don't wanna let go of - it could be a lover, it could be a father, it could be a child, it could be a friend, I don't know. This is 'Kite' . . ."


Something is about to give
I can feel it coming
I think I know what it means

I'm not afraid to die
I'm not afraid to live
And when I'm flat on my back
I hope to feel like I did

And hardness, it sets in
You need some protection, the thinner the skin

I want you to know
That you don't need me anymore
I want you to know
You don't need anyone or anything at all

Who's to say where the wind will take you?
Who's to say what it is will break you?
I don't know which way the wind will blow
Who's to know when the time has come around?
Don't wanna see you cry
I know that this is not goodbye

In summer, I can taste the salty sea
There's a kite blowing out of control on a breeze
I wonder what's gonna happen to you
You wonder what has happened to me

I'm a man
I'm not a child
A man who sees
The shadow behind your eyes

Who's to say where the wind will take you?
Who's to say what it is will break you?
I don't know where the wind will blow
Who's to know when the time has come around?
I don't wanna see you cry
I know that this is not goodbye

Did I waste it?
Not so much I couldn't taste it
Life should be fragrant
Rooftop to the basement

The last of the rock stars
When hip-hop drove the big cars
In the time when new media
Was the big idea
That was the big idea

Desi dog of Hamilton Heights

Desi dog of Hamilton Heights

I am so relieved that I was able to download this shot of Desi dog.  It's been my profile pic for Hamilton House on Foursquare since I took it.  I don't know what happened to the original.

There are so many things I want to say about Desi and our time together over the past 14 years.  I don't know where to start.

I was inspired to start keeping this blog after reading Jon Katz's 10,000th blog post on Bedlamfarm.com today:

Day Of Rest: Boundaries Of Grief. When The Soul Is Seared

Desi died the day before Thanksgiving, Wednesday, November 23, 2011.  It was the worst day of my adult life.  Everything since then has been life after Desi.

Grieving is not something I'm comfortable with because of the depth of my own personal sensitivity.  I am far more sensitive than anyone I've ever met with the exception of my sisters.

I have never felt the kind of grief I am feeling right now over Desi's death.  The loss is completely overwhelming.  It comes in waves and it often feels as if all the wind has been sucked out of me and I've been knocked off my feet. 

All the expressions I've ever heard about grief are absolutely applicable. The feeling of "puking my guts out" is probably the one I identify with most.

In the weeks leading up to his death I was experiencing the strangest feeling of physical nausea and dizziness.  This visceral feeling continues to this day.  I have never experienced this type of complete and total disorientation before in my life and frightens me beyond words.  It's a feeling of vertigo combined with a sense that I am going to puke my guts out.  Sometimes my vision becomes so blurred that I start to think it's just a part of the aging process.  But I honestly think it's much more profound than that.  I think it's a reaction to extreme stress and anxiety.  I have been in this state of distress for many, many months now.  SO has Desi.  It was as if his emotional and mental distress combined with the loss of his physical abilities felt as if they were my own emotional, mental and physical distress.

In part, this loss taps into all the feelings of abandonment I have from childhood.  But truthfully, my relationship with Desi has been the longest and most intensely close relationship I have experienced in my life.

There are feelings of shame and embarrassment in that admission because Desi was just a dog.  Just a little Boston Terrier.  Not a person.  But that's why I was able to let myself get so close.  My relationships with many people have been such a huge disappointment to me in general.  For the most part I have closed myself off from human relationships and shut myself off by retreating within.

It's not that I believe I will never have a human relationship that is close.  It's just that there are so many limitations that we as human beings have in relationships.  It's the deception.  It's the agenda.  It's the betrayal.  Perhaps I have just been unfortunate in my relationships with human beings.  Perhaps I am the one that is limited.  Or, perhaps I just have to accept that the human/human bond is not and can never be the same or as strong as the human/animal bond.

Again, I feel a bit embarrassed and ashamed to admit that to myself - let alone write it in a blog online.  But the truth is that Desi has always been here for me.  He knew everything about me.  I could be my complete and true self with him which is something I am never able to be with most people.  There are a few people I can be myself with but again, I feel like there is a price to pay for being exactly who you are around people.  They hold it against you.  They will throw things back in your face when they are angry.  Or they will become trite and jokingly say something publicly which you have shared with them in confidence because THEY don't think it's such a big deal.

Desi NEVER betrayed my confidences, he was always there, he was always my friend on my worst days and on my best days.  He taught me how to be responsible, how to grow up, how to be brave, how to be regimented and stay on schedule, how to enjoy taking a walk, how to be social with other people and animals, how to see beyond my own small-world and self-obsessed thinking, how to give without conditions, how to receive without the expectation that I have to give something back, I could go on and and and on about the lessons Desi taught me.  But for now I will stop here.

I can only handle so much of the grief and then have to shut it off, lock it down, hide it from myself so that it won't kill me.  Because the truth is - if I really allowed myself to fully go there I wouldn't want to be here anymore.  I would want to be wherever Desi is just not on this planet without him.

20/20/20 cardio - done!

20/20/20 cardio - done!

Blaze your own trail!

"So dance, dance, like it's the last, last night of your life . . ."

The whole secret to existence is to have no fear. ~Buddha
EASY FOR U 2 SAY BIG BUDDHA;)

Sitting at the Genius Bar for over 2 hours now. Should I worry about becoming an appleholic????

Everyone downtown is dressed in Santa outfits - what's going on?

"Love and you shall be loved". ~ Ralph Waldo Emerson

"Until one has loved an animal, a part of one's soul remains unawakened." ~ Anatole France)

In the gym doing Cardio & listening to Gaga. Sometimes That's all there is to do CordellFitness

7 lbs./2 weeks @ShawnaCordell CordellFitness

Amanda Mcgrory of USA @ 01:50:25 is the female Pushrim Wheelchair Winner. You are an inspiration!!! NYCMarathon

THE MENS @INGNYCMarathon WINNER is Geoffrey Mutai of Kenya @2:05:06. HE'S WORLD RECORD HOLDER & COURSE RECORD HOLDER IN BOSTON & NYC. WOW!!!

Congrats to Masazumi Soejima of Japan!!! He is the 2011 @INGNYCMarathon Pushrim WHEELCHAIR Winner @01:31:41 AWESEOME!!! NYCMarathon

Congrats to Firehiwot Dado of Ethiopia!!! She is the 2011 @INGNYCMarathon Women's Winner! DADO KICKED ASS @ 2:23:15!!! WOW!!! NYCMarathon

Good luck to all the NYC Marathon runners this year!!! KICK *SS!!! NYCMarathon

One of my favorite scenes from "Serial Mom":[DON'T CLICK IF FOUL LANGAUGE OFFENDS]:) http://ping.fm/2DPg5

TRULY INSPIRATIONAL 2C THESE 2 DANCE THE TANGO-ENCORE!!! RT@purederekhough @DerekHough & @AllisonHolker DWTS Season 13 http://bit.ly/sQLE1O

Probably my favorite Michael Jackson video of all time: http://ping.fm/NAxp2 Thriller HappyHalloween

Winter storm watch??? Really??!! I mean REALLY??!! 4-6" of snow in NY???!! Come on - really? ??!!!

@ShawnaCordell just kicked my *as in the gym. Great workout! cordellfitnesskick*ss

Just shot an interview with the @AccidentalPerv Andrew Goffman for @TheaterFanatics - so much fun!!!

Verizon is trying to sell me the whole store with this @DroidBionic

Working With Dallas

A couple of weeks ago I started working with Dallas Travers to help kick-start my career up a notch. Perhaps it's more accurate to say JUMP START my career up several notches. Okay - if I'm going to be totally honest, I started working with Dallas to RESUSCITATE my career from near death! I've worked with a lot of various types of teachers and coaches to develop my skills as an actor, singer and dancer. I have learned a lot from all of them in spite of myself and and in spite of themselves. What I mean by that is, I have often felt a great deal of frustration, animosity and general negative energy in many of these classes. Dallas is totally different! The first thing that is very evident about her is that she appears to be a genuinely happy person. She also seems to come from a place of sincere desire to help actors market themselves, get jobs and most importantly be happy themselves. Dallas radiates charisma, charm and confidence. She has a fun, positive, easygoing manner which allows me to really hear all the valuable things she has to offer. I signed up for Dallas' weekly coaching calls and a follow-up workshop in October. I'm looking forward to "doing less more often" and seeing the long-term results I have observed in many others that have worked with Dallas. Lastly, Dallas has a great blog and invites guest writers to contribute to her blog frequently. A Life Coach named Genie Kahn quoted author John Updike regarding his take on "perfectionism" which is a state of mind that I constantly suffer with. John Updike wrote that “perfectionism is the enemy of creation.” Genie wrote "Isn’t it about working to be the best you can be? There is no perfect, only a better you. Carried to extremes, perfection is toxic as well as paralyzing. You know this." He's right! And she's right!

Did the City really need to shut down the entire NYC transit system? Sorry to be critical BUT I do think they overreacted to this hurricane.

Anybody happen to hear the weather report for this weekend?

Why is it that whenever something is supposedly "easy to assemble" - it's really not?!!

The only GOOD thing about the quake coverage is @ least it bumps moronic coverage of CaseyA, KimK & DaSituation but move on nothing 2C here!

HUG THE KIDS: 30 DAY HUG CHALLENGE http://owl.li/5Iz4B Thanx @VinniePolitan for having Michelle Nichols on PrimeNews HLN HugTheKids

Desi left a nice fragrant dogpoop gift in my bedroom. Tried to cover the smell w/nag champa & orange Spic & Span. Now it smells like all 3!

I don't believe its only 79° out tonight. It feels like 97 @ least!

REMINISCENT OF OJ SIMPSON SLOW SPEED CHASE - LIVE CASEYANTHONY HELICOPTER COVERAGE: http://tinyurl.com/3lrn457

Unbelievably nice out in NYC today!

@ tekserve my mac needs more memory & speed! & So do I!

@OfficialMila Have fun at the Marine Ball!!! Way to go girl!!! TheMarineandTheMovieStar FriendsWithBenefits

My iPod is shufflin' some good sh*t! I'm a genie in a bottle baby!!!

Legal Def of REASONABLE DOUBT in Criminal Cases HIGHLY FAVORS DFNDT. I voted NG based on that DEF & DFNDT also walked! CaseyAnthonyVerdict

CaseyAnthony IS Chicago's Roxy Hart! "It's all showbiz kid-this trial-the whole world...Give 'em the old Razzle Dazzle & they'll make U A ✮"

It is OJ SIMPSON ALL OVER AGAIN!!! CaseyAnthony VerdictReached

NOT GUILTY does NOT MEAN INNOCENT!!! The State wasn't able to prove CaseyAnthony Guilty beyond a reasonable doubt! VerdictReached

CaseyAnthony found NOT GUILTY of 1st Degree Murder & GUILTY on ALL Counts 4-7 interfering w/ law enforcement!! WHAT A JOKE! VerdictReached

The Jury in the CaseyAnthony case has reached a VERDICT! It will be read in about 45 minutes @ approximately 2:15 pm. VerdictWatch STANDBY

DAMN!!! NO VERDICT TODAY!!! CaseyAnthony Jury deliberated for 5:49:24. VerdictWatch

VERDICTWATCH IN THE CASEYANTHONY CASE! This is the media room where jurors will go to speak after verdict is reached: http://bit.ly/j9TJ8C

Happy4thofJuly :)

I'm hopelessly glued to the CaseyAnthony trial's ClosingArguments

Off to see the "Bengal Tiger at the Baghdad Zoo" with Robin Williams!

R there Any other InSession viewers that can get this song out of their head "I have a structured settlement and I need cash now."?

Happy Father's Day to my Dad & all the other fathers out there!

Tony night! Good luck 2 all the Tony nominees especially @Vicki_Clark & the entire cast of @SisterActBway especially @JayTrey @TheTonyAwards

Dr. G testimony in the Casey Anthony trial was off the hook!!! Casey is going down!

Just had an endoscopy/upper GI exam done and now I understand why michael jackson was so addicted to propofol! The BEST NAP EVER!!!

Are all these kids really standing outside the stage door waiting for "Harry Potter"??? I mean really? ??!!!!

Flight back to NYC - crawling w/ infants & toddlers - and thats just the parents! Ugh -nightmare!

DirecTV on board which means ID channel in flight - AWESOME! !!

5:00 am in Newark Airport - should I have Mickey D's or Dunkin' Donuts for breakfast????

Off to LA via smelly Newark for a long Memorial Day weekend - yay!

PERFECT DAY! 79 & SUNNY:)

82 degrees out right now! How did it go from winter to Sumner without Spring in between? ??

Happy Dooms Day Everyone!

"Good People" = Great play!!! Excellent cast! Frances McDormand, Becky Ann Baker, Estelle Parsons, Tate Donovan et al - STELLAR!

Great day to see a matinee of "Good People" with Frances McDormand.

Absolutely gorgeous day in Manhattan today! !!

Happy mother's day to all the moms out there is an absolutely perfect gorgeous day so enjoy it

Stairway familiaration drill aka Fire Drill!!!

Perfect day!

Carol Channing in "Larger Than Life" @ Tribeca Film Festival is here in person! !!

"Love, Loss, and What I Wore" - was a bit too girly for me BUT a bug thank you to @KarenSummerton for the tix & contending with the "Rumor" ;) GORGEOUS NIGHT OUT 2NITE!!

@BouchonBakeryTW @SamsungExpNYC @batesmotel1128 & me thank u 4 the awesome pb cookie, coffee, couches, net surfing & 4 charging my phone!!!

Chillin' @SamsungExperience in @TimeWarnerCenter they are CHARGING my Droid phone and I'm drinkin' coffee and surfing the net - AWESOME!!!

Happy Pesach Jewish People!!! From ~ your gentile friend ;)

My dog is walking me ans beautiful spring like weather we're having a new york city

OMG-on 1 train sitting in seat that smells like bum BO. Now I feel like it's all over me like skunk spray & I'll never get the smell out!!

Happy Birthday to my little doggie daughter Miss Mona! She is 3 and/or 21 today! xoxoxo http://ping.fm/Krw0e http://ping.fm/byoO6 http://ping.fm/vfFV0

Northern Westchester Hospital has THE BEST vending machines ever!!!

Got a black magic woman . . .

I'm the victim of IDENTITY THEFT according 2 the IRS! OMG-it's crazy. If anyone knows who took it please tell them 2 give it back-I need it!

I WON PART OF THE MEGAMILLIONS JACKPOT!!! I HIT THE MEGABALL # 4 AND WON $2.00 - WOO HOOOO!!!

OMG - I feel bad saying this but j-lo's kids are ugly!!! They look like Marc Anthony - poor things:( check out page 20 of the 4/4 issue of People. Its dreadful!

So sick of the snow! I went out last night to walk my dogs slipped on the firescape and fell right on my can!

Friday it was 68 & gorgeous. Tonight it's 30 something, hailing, thundering & NASTY!

I've been poking so much on FB my finger hurts!

Just got clear mobile internet. Screw Verizon who hasn't fixed my internet since December!!!

OMG do my eyes deceive me or IS IT REALLY 76 DEGREES OUT IN NYC RIGHT NOW? ??

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Up & at 'em!

Visited my 91 year old Grandma in rehab last night. She's 4 days sober! We had speariment leaves Reese's PBs & reminiscenced @ the good 'ole days;)

oh my god I just became the mayor of hamilton house on 4square !

"There is guidance for each of us, and by lowly listening we shall hear the right word." - Ralph Waldo Emerson

Can't sleep . . .

19 degrees feels like 7!

Returned my iPhone - no regrets !!! Looking forward to a new faster android 4G phone - the HTC Thunderbolt :)

Holy Heatwave Batman!!! It got up to 67° today and it's a beautiful 65° in Gotham right now batfolks:)

It's 55 degrees out in Gotham City tonight batfolks - WOW !!!

DAGNABBIT - that little bitch of mine ate a lead pencil today:(

Happy valentines Day all! It's Warner & still light out in NYC so enjoy:)

Finally took my Xmas tree down just in time for Valentines Day;)

I cant be the only one who has ever sent back the netflix movie they DIDN'T watch as opposed to the one they DID?!!?! Can I?

$$ @ the Time Warner Center - wish I could afford a even piece of chocolate here! :( $$

Oh YES I did!!! Got my confirmed order confirmation for the Verizon iPhone - it begins . . .

Do these winter storms EVER end??? !!! Honestly - is there ANYONE out there who actually LIKES this weather? ??

CAN'T WAIT 2C @ThatKevinSmith 's new, totally independent movie "RED STATE" @RadioCityMusicHall TIX GO ON SALE 1/28 http://coopersdell.com/

127 Hours = Awesome

Figured out how to hook up my MacBook to the HDTV so I can watch "The Fighter" screener. Thanks @KarenSummerton :)

A 10 & 11 year just taught me how to play "Angry Birds" on my Droid - now I'm hooked! !!

Now I have NO CHOICE - I HAVE to get the iPhone on Verizon on 2/3. Just cracked the face of my Droid:(

Weather.com calls today's weather in NYC a "wintry mix" - WTF?!! Never heard that term before - I call it CRAP!

It's a long cold walk to the 1 train home tonight! Brrrrrrr

Illll - just saw a cockroach in my bldg trash closet & was grossed out like a 10 yr old girl:( Nasty little buggers!

Just took a great spin class @NYSC - not as good as my sister Mary's class but still kicked my *ss;)

If its gonna snow like the Dickens tonight please let us at least get a snow day from work & school-Xcept 4 NYC San dept;)

I just realized my dogs are actually pigs! They look like pigs, sound like pigs & act like pigs. Let's call a duck a duck...They're pigs!!!

Taking a free iMovie hands-on workshop @ the apple store :)

Happy New Year All! New Year's goal is to learn how to edit on iMovie. I used Madonna's "Celebration" for my 1st try;) http://ping.fm/pyAKL